"I wish!" I replied with a sigh.
In fact, I this go around is the hardest yet! Yes, you would think it would all be old hat for me by now, but I find myself more frustrated than the last time. I know what each document needs, I know how long it can take, and all I want is to hold my baby in my arms. My child who is waiting for her forever family, not even knowing that at this very moment I am staring at her picture for the 10th time today with tears in my eyes. This is the reality of the adoption paperwork haze, friends.
So I have been struggling this third go around staying focused on God. He has provided for us at every step of each adoption, and it has always been in His perfect timing, so why do I doubt?
Lately, I had been praying, "God, please help us get these documents together quickly!" And then suddenly this week, I stopped my nonsense long enough to hear that whisper in my heart, "Suzanne, stop. Just stop, be still and listen. Be open to my plan and timing. I love Eva more than you can imagine. I am with her, protecting her, comforting her and preparing her heart. The same goes for you. Be still and know that I am God."
Wow, what a burden has been lifted. It doesn't mean that I won't still struggle but I feel a sense of peace now that surpasses all comprehension.
Praise God for His perfect plan!