It is very easy for me to compartmentalize things in my brain. I tend to put things that I would rather not think about or worry about in distant "compartments" of my brain rather than dwell on them. Even as a child, I had this whole scenario laid out involving Barbie. She was the keeper of the file cabinets in my brain. I would take a moment when asked a question and mentally picture Barbie walking to the appropriate cabinet to retrieve whatever information I needed to access. I had quite the vivid imagination.
You may be wondering why am I telling you all of this? I'm getting to it! :) Basically, I haven't let myself think about or dwell too much on getting the house ready for You You until last week. I didn't want to get too excited about his arrival so I stored these thoughts away in order to curb the anticipation which turns to worry and takes my focus from trusting God. The waiting is hard, especially when you consider how often the sadness overwhelms us surrounding how much of You You's life we have already missed. However, now that my amazing sister came to town to help me organize my house and get his room cleaned out, I am super excited yet overwhelmed at the same time! We have so many things left to do to get ready for his arrival, but as it approaches more quickly than I could have imagined, I am allowing myself to open up to the idea that we are actually going to bring him home soon.
So I would say that the idea of nesting and preparing the house for him is finally settling in. We still have lots to do like the small tasks of furnishing his room and preparing for home schooling :) but I know God is in control and will take it one day at a time, trusting Him!
“Then Jesus said to his disciples: ‘Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat; or about your body, what you will wear. For life is more than food, and the body more than clothes. Consider the ravens: They do not sow or reap, they have no storeroom or barn; yet God feeds them. And how much more valuable you are than birds! Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to your life? Since you cannot do this very little thing, why do you worry about the rest? Consider how the wild flowers grow. They do not labor or spin. Yet I tell you, not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these. If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today, and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, how much more will he clothe you—you of little faith! And do not set your heart on what you will eat or drink; do not worry about it. For the pagan world runs after all such things, and your Father knows that you need them. But seek his kingdom, and these things will be given to you as well.’” (Luke 12:22-31, NIV)
“Or if he is asked for an egg, he will not give him a scorpion, will he? If you then, being evil, know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your heavenly Father give the Holy Spirit to those who ask Him?” (Luke 11:12-13, NIV)
My one purchase for his room thus far - his comforter!