Friday, September 14, 2012

Waiting . . .

Waiting . . . in our society today, filled with instant gratification, waiting is not an easy task, especially when it comes to waiting for a child that is 1000's of miles away from you, living in a different country and growing up without even knowing you.  The thought of You You spending day after day not knowing us makes me sad and stirs this sense of urgency within me far beyond what I can explain.  I get a rising in my stomach that pushes me to organize, clean and "nest" yet the practical side of me says, "Hold back, Suzanne. You don't really know anything about this 8 year old boy. What if he doesn't like the color I paint the walls of his room?"  There are so many questions to be answered and so many things to be done. I don't want him to arrive and find nothing in his room because I feel as if he would think, "do they even want me?" Yet, I also want him to have a part in setting up his own room and making  it feel like a little piece China in the middle of the big state of Texas.

This is where faith has to come in, my friends. I could sit here all day worrying about what You You will or won't like or what furniture and clothes I should buy but what good does that do, I ask you?  ABSOLUTELY NOTHING! "Can any of you by worrying add a single hour to your life?" (Matt. 6:27, NIV)  God is waiting for me to hand over all the anxiety and desire to be in control to Him. He knows what You You is doing and what He needs far better than I ever will. God knows how many hairs are on his sweet head and how many hours I spend thinking about him, homeschooling and how he will adjust while missing his foster family. I have faith that God is working in all our hearts to prepare us, and I am so grateful for God's righteous, constant and steady hand upon my life and for the privilege of being given these children by Him to raise up for Him. What a blessing, calling challenge and training experience!

I love looking back and thinking about how I can see the hand of God so clearly throughout my life, directing  and guiding me and seeking always to carry my burdens. These events make our faith stronger because we know without a shadow of a doubt that He is faithful because He has proven Himself faithful.  When I look at the journey that led us to Grace, I can so plainly see God's hand that it takes my breath away, and when I consider our more recent journey to You You, God's direction, plan, provision, and guidance is again so visible that it puts my silly musings to shame. Praise God that He is ever faithful!

"But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own. (Matt. 6:33-34, NIV)

"Come to me all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light." (Matt. 11:28-30, NIV)



1 comment:

  1. What a great reminder! He is always so faithful...stopping by from We are grafted in!

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